I’m at the clinic today, waiting to find out how I feel.

Waiting is the operative word today. Everything is taking longer than it should. I got here at 7:00 so I could be first in line for lab work. The sooner they take the labs the sooner they get the results. The sooner they get the results the sooner they can start the infusion. And the sooner they start the sooner they finish and the sooner I can go home.

In theory.

Today it was 10:20 before they came with the Rituxan. That’s my infusion drug. This is round three of six. Once a month until the middle of November. And there’s also the daily dosage of ABT-199 pills. It’s an experimental Bcl-2 inhibitor. (If you’re here for the first time, I have CLL and am in a clinical trial to try not to have CLL).

So anyway, the lab results look good.

Warning: here’s the part where I go through more numbers than a bookie and a lot of very highly technical scientific data and if you think it’s been boring so far, just wait.

First, a lot of the counts are below normal – white, red, blue, hemoglobin, platelets, alcohol – and not even caffeine is above normal. So that’s good. Probably better if everything is in the normal range, but mostly, low is better than high. My white count was way high and pretty much all leukemia cells when I started the trial and now it’s below normal and mostly, good white cells.

And then there was my exam. I was hooked up to my IV pole so the doctor came to me. And he had the results of yesterday’s CT scan. He went through them one by one. Spleen, normal (it was enlarged before the trial). Liver, same as spleen. I mean it’s normal now, was enlarged before. I know your liver’s not the same as your spleen. One of them does something and the other does something else. Sorry to have to get all anatomical on you, but it’s important to have an understanding of these things. Got that?

The report doesn’t say they’re normal. It says they’re “unremarkable.” I was offended.

And then lymph nodes. It’s blood cancer, but if your lymph nodes are enlarged, those are tumors. Lymph nodes and the spleen (see above) are where leukemia cells are parked. So I’ve got one node that’s 6 millimeters by 4 millimeters, but before the trial was 11 x 10. Another one was 14 x 6 before and it’s gone now. It’s gone now.

He read those off and then said “that’s really amaz.. really good.” In the game of numbers, if your lymph nodes are below five millimeters and your platelets are above 100, you’ve had what they call a complete response to the medication. So that one lymph node is right on the cusp and my platelet count is 104. And I had only had two of the six infusions at the time of  the CT scan.

So far in this trial, 84% of the patients who have completed the infusions have had positive results and 36% have had a complete response. Still really small numbers of patients. But looks like I’m on the way to a complete response. I’ll do a couple more infusions, in September and October and then another CT scan. If the results hold up, then after the sixth and final infusion I do a bone marrow biopsy. That lets them literally count the number of leukemia cells. If it’s a complete response, maybe I stop the pills, maybe I keep taking them. We’ll figure that out if the time comes.

So, yay.

I started the trial in late May and it’s routine now. A handful of pills every morning. And a diary to keep track of what time I take them.

No side effects. Just effects.

If you’re wondering, I feel pretty good. Pretty damn good.